Long Time No Post: Just some Words of Encouragement!


I am deliberate and afraid of nothing.

~Adure Lorde


Movement is Life. So don’t stop moving.
Breath. Move. Travel. Live.



I’m a woman,
Phenomenal woman,
That’s me.

~Maya Angelou


Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about the things that matter.

~Martin Luther King Jr.


Did You Watch Obama’s State of the Union Address Tonight?


For those of you who didn’t get a chance to watch it, here’s the link!


I encourage everyone to play an active role in politics, which means keeping up with current events, like the presidential State of the Union Address! If you’re young it’s especially important for you to stay politically active. Be aware! Don’t stick your head in the sand! I know I’ve been a culprit of that from time to time. Yikes! Leave a comment and tell me what your thoughts are on Obama’s speech! This is a judgment-free zone, all I ask is that you be respectful of others opinions.

Love and Loss: My Testimony


Love is an interesting and complex phenomenon. Especially the loss of a loved one. It is absolutely astounding what the loss of a loved one can do to the human mind. Unexpected loss, in my opinion, is probably the most damaging type of loss. I lost my older brother, Julius, to a car accident 4 years ago this February. The strength of my love for my brother is so strong that when he died my grief not only paralyzed me, but it also fundamentally changed me. I was not who I was and I will never go back to being that Chloe again. The easiest example to explain is the way I thought about and understood numbers and patterns and how that changed. It became difficult to do simple math and to see and remember patterns in anything. I used to be pretty good at seeing unique patterns and remembering weird number patterns. But for some reason, when I lost my brother, I lost that as well. I attribute it to my loss of personal identity. Losing my big brother shattered not only my understanding of who I was, but also my understanding of life and how life was “supposed” to work. Even though I was already in my second semester of my college life and legally I was considered an adult, February 4, 2010 was the last day I was a child. On February 5, I started living the life of an adult, forced to accept the harsh, unrelenting, ugly realities of human life. I love my brother and I feel robbed of the chance to live a life with him. The amount of anger I felt because of that truth is unreal, I never thought I could be capable of that kind of rage. It consumed me for so long, controlling my every action. My anger manifested differently than most, probably because I internalize any emotion I feel is too overwhelming to cope with. I had little, to no, patience for anything, I hated people, I had no faith in them. I let insignificant and petty offenses bother me. They festered in me and hindered my growth as a person. This internalization of my anger and my unwillingness to confront my reality started affecting my relationships with my family and some of my friends as well. I hated what had become of me and my family. It was no longer the strong, supporting unit that I relied so heavily on my whole life. I was no longer the curious, cheery girl to be around. I had to escape. I had to get away from the person that I was becoming. I had to find out who I was and what I wanted my life to be about. So I left. I spent eight months in Germany. These eight months allowed me the growth that I needed. The distance from my family and relying solely on myself to grocery shop, cook my own food, clean up after myself, establish a support base of friends, and even having to communicate in a foreign language gave me a sense of worthiness and purpose. A concept that had been lacking in my life since I had  lost my brother. I was able to re-realize how much I love my family and how unique they are. With this renewed perspective I was able to repair myself as well as the relationships in my life that had crumbled or began to decay. It allowed me to better understand adulthood and what that transition means. I gained an understanding of what I want out of my life and the beauty of life itself. After returning from my life in Germany the transition back to my life in America was difficult. I was a different person with new perspectives, desires and ambitions in life. Not everyone was willing to accept that change in me, including myself. But all became adjusted eventually. Since then I have been making more changes in my life, taking on ambitious and optimistic outlooks on life, my life. “I will be exceptional” and “I will make change” are my new mottoes and I have already made solid steps in that direction and I am proud of myself for that. However, this business of losing a loved one has resurfaced. My grandfather passed away a few days ago and now I feel the creeping, crippling hand of grief wrapping its hands around my spine ready and waiting to snap it. This is my last semester of my undergrad life. I refuse to let it break me. The days of immobilizing depression and anger or over and I will not let them back in. I promised my grandfather this and now I am promising myself this. I have to grieve the loss of my grandfather which  means I will be depressed for a while. This last semester as an undergrad is going to be difficult, but what I have to take away from my journey thus far, is that difficult times are always going to be mixed in with life. I have to go through the motions of grief. I have to be sad for a while, but that is ok. It’s a part of life. If I am sad, it is only because  I love my grandfather and my brother. I love and miss them both immensely, but life is not going to wait around for me until I finish grieving. So I have to grieve while I live.

I love you grandpa.



Why the eff didn’t you watch these TED Talks? The 2013 edition.


For your educational enjoyment!! I love TED talks and if you are unaware of their awesomeness then your life is about to change. Just saying…

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Perhaps you are looking forward to a new and hopeful 2014; perhaps you see late December as the perfect time for reflection and resolution. I’m pleased to let you off the hook. This is the time when you should look back at your year and focus on the question: What TED Talks did I miss? Lucky for you, the 2013 edition of “Why the eff didn’t you watch these TED Talks?” — which, amazingly, you seemed to like last year — is here. New and hopeful is fine and good, but I’m more in favor of not forgetting the old, the weird, the mystifying, the liminal and the hidden. And so I give you: My favorite 11 under-loved TED Talks of 2013. Be ready to be mildly chastised for missing out on them the first time around.

Andrew Solomon: Depression, the secret we share
If you haven’t seen this talk yet, you’re excused, as…

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Favorites of 2012: Why the eff didn’t you watch these TED Talks?


More TED talks for your educational enjoyment!! *^_<*

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2012 was the year of radical openness at TED. In that spirit, while our office is closed for winter break, TED’s editorial staffers have selected their favorite talks of the year that, for a variety of reasons, didn’t get as many views as we would have hoped … giving you a peek into both our process and our personalities. We hope you enjoy.

It’s the end of 2012, and that means end-of-the-year lists. And while you’re scrambling to look at photos of 43 people you won’t believe actually exist, to relive the year in animated gifs, or to download the year’s best 100 tracks, you’re not watching TED Talks. Frankly, I’m disappointed. There’s a whole host of nerdy, serious, socially minded, mildly chiding, frankly bizarre talks you might have missed this year. BUMMER FOR YOU. Here are 11 of my favorite TED Talks from 2012 that I’m surprised — nay, appalled

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Our Voices: Let’s have a Conversation


What is a voice?

Simply put, it’s the expression of our opinions and beliefs.  Do we all utilize our voices and are all voices really that important? We do not all utilize our voices. In fact, many chose to be silent. Or maybe they don’t. Maybe they are silenced. It’s unfortunate, but the softer voice often gets drowned out. Nevertheless, I believe that all voices do deserve to be heard, to some extent. Maybe what you have to say, someone near you needs to hear. So what drowns your voice?
Fear of judgment and failure immobilize my tongue. My voice, normally strong and unwavering, falls prey to these fears. What if I’m wrong and someone challenges me? What if the person who I esteem finds fault in what I have to say. Or worse, thinks me inadequate and incapable of competent coherent thoughts? What of this?

Yet, I must say that my biggest enemy is ignorance. It chokes me. Slithering its sly smug hands over my mouth and laughing at my inability to refute what I do not know.  Lack of knowledge, simply being uninformed always kills my voice. Because how can I rebut an argument I know nothing about? Instead, I find myself silently embarrassed and quizzically nodding approval of a subject I desperately wished I knew anything about.

I urge you to find strength in your own voice. Listen to it. Challenge it. Encourage it. Introduce it to new voices, parallel voices, or opposing voices. Love your voice. Never be ashamed of it. Don’t allow anyone to stop the growth of your voice. Additionally, if someone puts you down for a minor or inconsequential mistake or belittles you and makes you feel inadequate, unworthy or invaluable in any way then they are not someone you want to esteem. That last thought is often extremely difficult to embrace, because, unfortunately, that belittling person is sometimes a loved one. Nonetheless, we must not be muted. Instead, we must sing.